In the sea, it is destiny to meet and to fall in love, and to be a man and a wife is a hundred years' worth.
As husband and wife, they have experienced the triviality of their lives, so have they evened each other. So in the face of a better and better life, it should be a common goal of the family, a good life and a loving family.
I've never doubted our feelings, and I'm confident that my husband will cheat. But it didn't come to mind that he was cheating on the women of the neighborhood.
And my pet dog, French fries, is their excuse for dating.
01.
I'm Ching, married to my husband Shang for more than a decade, and we fought together for our happy and stable family.
We are the perfect couple to be seen.
It's not just a man's face, it's a woman's face.
The right-hand neighbours sometimes turn us around: there are such perfect couples in real life.
We laughed at each other.
We're in free love, we've been together since college.
Upon graduation, each seeks a job until the job is stable.
We're both saving up for the wedding and the wedding.
As Shang always said, "You must marry me, so why don't we fight hard and save money before we get married, and when we have enough of the first house, I'll marry you and your parents will have nothing to say."
I am an only child and my family is in good condition, so I do not understand the plans and preparations for the future, because I have not experienced life or a lack of money.
If so, I should give him my full support for a better future for us, because I want to spend my life with him.
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Shang, the white skin, the handsome face, the tall one, the humorous character, all the handsomeness of men.
The only weakness of Shang is that he comes from poor rural areas, where he lived and where he was a child, not only poor but also isolated.
Then, as Shang knew, it was only by working hard to learn that he would have a better life out of the mountains.
So he got angry and tried to learn.
At the end of the day, the desired university was admitted with excellent results.
During college, I also volunteered to pursue Shang.
I was touched by his bitter spirit and by the persistence of the goal.
Even during the university period, Shang earns tuition and maintenance on a part-time basis.
I don't have to talk to my parents, they'll take out loans, I'm afraid my money won't be enough, I'm afraid I won't eat well, I'm not warm.
This contrast makes me feel like I don't deserve Cheung.
So, I decided to work part-time without my parents.
Two people save money and work. Just like a small couple living in a family, happy and content.
Our money, all saved at Shang's bank.
After graduation, Shang entered the state enterprise and I became a teacher.
I didn't want to be a teacher either. I wanted to work with Shang. We worked together. There are difficulties in helping each other in the course of their work.
But Shang did mature and reason more than I did, and he said, "When we get married, when we have children, business is not suitable for a woman, so that neither of us can take care of them, and eventually you will be more tired."
Listening to Shang's analysis, I think he's very right.
His parents could not have come to town to bring us children, and my parents could take care of them, but they retired.
So I stuck to the exam and tried to prepare it, and finally became a teacher as Shang wanted.
Work is stable and income is good, and we have a habit of early savings and earning money, and before we get married, I and Shang's savings and my old money from childhood. We've got a down payment for a house.
With the house, Shang had the courage to give my parents a kiss.
Parents also know that I like this man, although it is felt that the difference between our living environment and our family environment is too far. But the most important thing is this man.
That's it, we're married.
03.
When I got married, I took my pet dog in my new room, and I called it French fries.
I like pet dogs. I've been a kid since I was a kid. I feel so alone, only with a pet around me, I feel like my best friend, more like my sister.
But, unlike Shang, he thought it was strange to have animals in his family, perhaps living in a different environment from childhood, and he thought that human animals could not live in one room, so he could never accept the presence of fries.
But I like it, I look like my sister.
Although we have differences in life about pets.
But in the end, Shang promised me, after all, that he would learn to travel, and that I would not be afraid of the dark and lonely when I was alone with French fries.
But I never thought that a pet dog could be an extramarital message to Shang.
Seven years married, we had two kids.
Shang loved the two children very much and never had much affection for fries.
French fries are particularly smart, knowing that the man doesn't like him, so he's never dared to make love to the man. It's really good for me and the kids.
So, our lives pass, our days pass, we have two sets, we have cars, we have some savings.
So, after work, I put all my weight and energy on the two children and raised them.
And Shang struggled with his career.
Many years of life, it has become a habit for both of us to grow up unwittingly: outside the man, within the woman.
So I wanted to be my teacher, and I didn't even think about how to raise my career.
Just two years ago, it suddenly became apparent that Ah Shang was particularly fond of fries and that he would take them out at a certain stage or take a piss.
It was an unexpected surprise for me.
When I learned the reasons behind this, I realized it was not a surprise, but a surprise.
04.
For my marriage, I'm confident.
Because in our marriage, I'm a good husband.
So I never thought my marriage would be a problem, and I never thought that extramarital affairs would be in our marriage.
I believe in my husband, in his love for me, in his duty to his family, and in our faithful love.
He's my first love. I'm his first love. It's supposed to be the best union.
Faced with the husband's preference for fries, I thought he was willing to accept them.
French fries have a habit of defecating every morning at 6 a.m. and must be taken for a walk.
Children go to school and get up early must insist.
But we all want to get lazy on weekends, but the fries don't allow it. It's like an alarm clock, wailing every morning at 6:00.
Then one day, Shang lets us sleep, and he walks around with fries.
It makes me very happy, and I can sleep with the kids.
Every weekend, we sleep late and late, maybe we wake up at noon, maybe at around 10 or 11, and then we sleep until we wake up.
While we were asleep, it was time for Ashang to walk around with his fries.
I always thought he was working out and walking with a dog.
Until my neighbour kindly reminded me, "Beware of your husband, and don't let the other woman go away," I began to observe and observe Shang's words.
05.
I didn't know that one of Shang's colleagues was in our neighborhood. She was a single divorced woman, younger than me. I found her name in Shang's address book.
I don't think French fries are an excuse for their affair.
Moreover, Shangping loved me very much, and it was very good for the children and paid.
There's some macho in my bones, but it's still tender in front of me.
For me, his only drawback is some pride.
Since marriage, as our career stabilizes and family conditions improve, I have found that he is no longer in a low profile and does not speak as hard as before.
It's about showing up with a sense of humor.
He has also become the senior management of the enterprise, inevitably creating a good self-perception, and the people who have suffered from childhood have become a little more sophisticated.
When I was still in my happy marriage and family, my neighbours kept talking to me.
Because we're neighbours, we often laugh and when we're busy, we eat together.
One day, after noon, I couldn't cook. Good neighbors have cooked for me.
In the course of eating, she always asked me, "Are you happy? Do you think your marriage is stable?"
And I laughed, "What happened to you today? It's usually a big deal, but it's a big mouth today. That's not your style. Say something, don't stop talking like that.”
She pulled me into the bedroom.
And then, in good faith, remind me, "Do you doubt every time your husband walks a dog? He didn't like it before, why did he like it later?"
This makes my heart panic, and I would like to know some specific details, but the neighbours will not say anything more than that you can find out if you look carefully.
So what did the neighbors see? In her character, she would not easily break my marriage, and she would only tell me if she felt too much.
I don't want to look into it, but I'd like to know what the medicine is.
06.
Reminiscent of Shang's "love" to fries is when he walks out of town, and usually he doesn't care about them.
Ever since my neighbours reminded me, I've kept my eye on Shang.
Especially when Shang takes the fries out.
I used to love Shang without any other impurities.
Since my neighbour reminded me, I have suddenly found myself worshipping him as a man who is no longer so imperfect and even a bit loathsome.
On weekends, as usual, I fell asleep with my kids, and the fries started making noise.
Shang got up without complaining, washed up and left with fries.
I've got to get up and watch carefully not far.
He waited patiently for French fries to defecate and then began to pick up the phone, too far away from me.
After a while, he took his fries to the rest of the block.
It's just two blocks away from my house, turn around and walk a few steps.
I don't know which bell it was. Shang went in.
And I'm right behind you, and I'm worried about how to get in, and then someone comes out and I sneak in.
I was standing next to the elevator and watching the floor where it was parked.
Only the elevators stayed on the 12th and 15th floors and then came down.
Then I can imagine that Shang should have entered these two floors.
I went to the 12th floor, listened carefully for a while, and heard the sound of French fries, because they would bark in a strange place, and did not hear the sound of Ashang in any room.
I went back to the 15th floor, just out of the elevator, and I heard the loud sound of my fries, which was like a prick in my heart.
I can't believe it's true, but I can't take nothing for granted.
I came home with tears. I was waiting. I thought I'd wait for Shang to come home.
07.
One hour, ten minutes, five minutes, three minutes...
I never felt that time was so slow, like a snail, the slower it was.
This painful heart and the pain of waiting for me to breathe.
I've been thinking, what's Shang doing this time?
About two hours later, Shang came back with fries.
When he came home, he felt like nothing had happened, even thinking that he was helping me by taking the dog out, and that he was hurting me, but sitting on the sofa and still looking at his cell phone, like a bone minister.
I smell a light perfume from him.
But I didn't say anything, I was in a bad mood, and Shang looked at me and asked me, "What's the matter with you?"
I took my jacket, ignored him, fell out.
Just outside, Shang's phone came.
I said I'm going out for a walk.
Because I'm gonna make sure it's true.
After I left, I called the neighbors.
On the phone, I described the story, and the neighbours said she had found out. Every time the dog was walking from the same side, she was curious, and she watched for some time before she realized that he had problems, but I didn't know it myself.
So, Shang's been on a date every time he's been walking a dog for two years?
How long have I been deceived in this marriage?
08.
If you don't have a date, Shang won't even take the fries out. It's only three days away. I'm gonna get up early and take the fries out and shit.
But Shang was up earlier than I was, and he said he'd take the fries out and let me work.
I asked him, "Are you not going to work today?"
He said, "Go, but not today."
The anger in my heart cannot be suppressed at once, but it is still necessary to find the truth.
I pretended to go to work, sent my kids halfway to the other teachers to switch classes, and I turned back.
That's when Shang and French fries left.
I went straight to the 15th floor.
Knocked on the door, waited a few minutes, someone came to open the door, not the woman, she didn't know me, and I went straight in. I was disappointed to see that my husband, Shang, was wearing pajamas.
I almost fell apart, but I don't want to swallow all the pain and suffering alone.
And I said, "What are you doing here?"
Yeah, I'm a cultured man, and I don't have the courage to yell.
It's just that all of this makes me look like shit.
In retrospect, every time Shang went out with his fries in the last two years, they were dating. As many times as I take French fries out, two people get dirty, and I'm stupid enough to think Shang cares for me.
099.
I really wanted to go up and slap her in the face, and I wanted to know which side Shang would choose, but I didn't.
I can only tell Xiao San hard enough: "This man says yes, he says no, he says no, he's not your turn, and you try to go out with him again, and I'll definitely regret it."
The children look to Shang, hoping that Shang will be able to “offset himself”.
And Shang called my wife panicking and wanted me to go home with him.
I turned around and said to Shang, "What are you at home?"
I fell out of the door, and I didn't know if Shang would come out. He comforted as he pleased.
Although I am a cultured man, I am not a lover, and I can only turn my back in grief in the face of everything.
What does it matter if you blame your husband? Without this woman, there might be other women.
I didn't care about him, I didn't intend to cry at him.
Divorce is not up to him. This marriage is up to me.
I locked the door and told Shang not to step back.
Thus, it has been almost a month that I have refused to allow him to enter the house in the face of Ah-Shang's apology and forgiveness and his desire to go home and his all-goodness.
I don't know. Divorce or forgiveness?
It is impossible to say complete forgiveness.
But if I divorce, I don't want two children to be hurt in any way, and in their eyes, dad's only on business, so every day I look forward to my dad coming home with them and even dreaming of having a lot of fun toys for myself.
I don't know. What am I going to do next? How am I going to take the first step?
What do you think I should do?